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I have been so stupidly busy with work, working six nights a week for ages now I just havent had any time to think let alone write. I must be crazy to be considering taking on another job during the day as I just dont have any time to myself anymore but needs prevail as always.

Does life ever cease to suck? I swear, things calm down and then new levels of suckiness just open up and swallow you!

Im taking my driving theory test next week, I so hope that I pass so I can go ahead and book my 2 week driving course. I think I’ll be ok answering the 50 questions but Im concerned about the hazard and perception because I am crap at it! One time I can get 5 points and another time I get 1 or 0 at all! It’s so frustrating and its not like Im the luckiest person around lol.

As I have been working so much recently I have managed to save more money which has made my trip to Australia next year alot more realistic and likely. HOWEVER, if I pass my theory and driving course I will of course need a car, now I could outrightly spend some of the money on a car and insurance etc and hope that I can get a second job during the day a few days a week in a call centre or something to claw the money back or I can go to the bank and get a loan…Im not sure which.

Maybe I will consult my cards and see what would be the better option later on.

I think if I take a second job during the week it will piss off a few friends and family because they’re already annoyed that my working evenings full time means they cant see me and my social life is practically non existant as most people work during the day and have evenings free. Also, work has just been piling on the shifts last minute which has meant cancelling plans that Id had before because I need the money and because the other girl I was working with has completely just disappeared! No notice, no nothing, just disconnected her phone and poof.

I have also met someone that has completely blown me away which doesnt happen very often. This would be great normally but he is older than me. To me, age is just a number and I cant help when either of us were born but I dont think he can see past my age and see me for me which is so frustrating because he’s like no one else I know. Even though he likes me too I think he’s scared to risk it or even give me a chance, we were chatting and texting but now he has fallen silent for a few days and it sucks alot like always because I never seem to get what I want!

Tags: life, love, work